Yesterday I had what I’m going to call a revelation, during a cycling class of all places. I was sitting there – riding to the music – and looked over at Mark, my fiance, who was smiling, eyes closed, and riding to the beat. The music playing was “Wonderwall” by Oasis, one of his all time favorites, to give you the full picture. He looked like he was having the best time ever. I had a sudden feeling of utter happiness come over me. I looked at his smiling face, and it made me so happy. This is someone I love with all of my heart, who I know loves me back. Lately I have been letting the stress of daily life get the best of me. I often come home stressed and in a bad mood, and see the look of sadness and distress come over Mark when he sees me like this.
During that cycling class, I realized I never want that to happen again. The truth is I am utterly happy right now. Sometimes I simply let life and its endless “duties” take hold of me and allow me to forget the many things in my life I have to be so extremely grateful for. I don’t want to look back on another day, or even a minute, thinking I wasted time being anxious, fearful or unhappy. Our time on this earth is far too short for that!
It’s funny how little instances of joy can put things into perspective. For me, in that moment I was reminded that I have the choice how every day will go – why choose anything but happiness?
My mantra today: I choose happiness!
glow & flow,